Someone feed me and bring me cigarettes.
I am being lazy today. Louisville tomorrow!
Let's just get to Louisville, and get you next to...
Until then, I’ll be having a lot of difficulty.
I just want to lay in bed, cuddle, listen to the...
But instead we must be responsible. And that’s okay too.
While trying to buy a laptop charger I accidentally proved there is no god.– Waking up to texts from boy.
Anonymous asked: Hi, I found your post about people having a skewed view of you very interesting. My whole life I have felt as though people have not seen me for who I really am and it's quite disheartening. I think people will always come to a certain conclusion about you until they really know you and if they don't know the real you it really doesn't matter what they think. You know who and what...
I very much wish some people didn't have such a...
[[MORE]] I don’t really mind much, as you can’t please everyone, but sometimes I get very confused as to how they came to such conclusions. I guess maybe rumors, or things like that, but I’ll never understand things like that. I’m never mean or cruel unless one of my family members is hurt or threatened, or a friend. But even then, I’m over it in a matter of hours....
No one even knows how hard life was. I don’t even think about it now because I’ve finally found you. Now sing it to me. Now my life is sweet like cinnamon; like a fucking dream I’m living in. Baby love me cause I’m playing on the radio
[[MORE]] Finally catching my breath. From the excitement of boy staying one day, to two days, to staying five. From all of the running around and raging and dancing and sleeping on floors and touching and kissing. To two drunken arguments about our insecurities and death threats to boys and girls who may try to get in the way that both ended in smiles. To the most amazing kisses I have ever ever...
Get temps. Get license. Get car. Get apartment in Louisville. Grow vegetables. Start eating new foods. DIY absolutely everything that can be. Make more clothing. Start work out plan and stick to it. Finish a book a week. Get a job I enjoy and keep it. Buy a guitar and learn how to play it. Get down to half a pack a day. Go to the doctor and get all things taken care of. Start reading...
As soon as you left my arms, it felt like...
Louisville Monday, possibly Sunday thru Wednesday or Thursday. Talking with my dad this weekend and seeing my brothers’ show. I need to take the next few days off completely. Sigh. Sleeping without you will be so difficult.
Food poisoned ourselves. Oops.
Dying on the flooooooor.
Waking up to eat and hearing someone whine your...
I missed that feeling so badly. Boy missed his bus. Staying until tonight or tomorrow. More cuddles. More rage. Shame we’re almost out of tequila! Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm I am so fucking happy. Never ever thought anyone would make me feel this good.
Have yet to sleep, boy leaves at noon tomorrow.
Sleepy and bummed. Sigh.
go-away-the-party-is-over asked: Oh my god! You're nineteen and already an alcoholic? You're so cool I hope to be like you one day. Last one to meth head buys the next case of natty ice!
Can't sleep even a little bit.
Anonymous asked: the person before was clearly a moron, i could never see you doing meth, nor would i see you having the money to every start meth to have a meth problem...but i digress. you are quite pretentious (a good vast majority of the time).
Been crazy sick all day. I feel like absolute...
But Hugh baby is the best, and I’m so happy to just be near him. Sweetest boy in the world. Mmmm. Paul text me saying he was going to buy me a Modest Mouse ticket, which is the nicest thing ever, and I unfortunately have to miss it. But worth it. Everything I could have hoped for and so much more.
Anonymous asked: Get the fuck over yourself. You're not cool for being 19 and an alcoholic. It's pathetic. The pace you're going, I bet you'll be a 21 yearold meth addict.
Selena and I went to eat at Pepper Pod around 10 and just stared at the door...– Depressing.
You don’t know you’re breathing that stuff until you’re dead!...– Tyler and Dan talk about apartments.
Getting "swag" tattooed to the inside of my lip.
Asked boy if he would judge me and he’s getting it tattooed to his ankle. Judge meeeee.
beastiebutton asked: I just sneezed and it reminded me of you. Mostly because you totally sneezed while asleep on Pauls couch and looked so distressed I wanted to Daddy Warbucks you.
Anonymous asked: I want to give you a hug.
Someone just let a ton of balloons go and I yelled “THERE GOES THE...– Waking up to Meagan texts.