I go on diets and then binge drink and drunkenly...
I am a failure.
Not to say our hang outs are invitation only.
But they’re invitation only. I just want to move asap. I’m done.
It's very easy to live cheap.
$5 for cigarettes. $2 for two dollar store meals. Fuck that ramen nonsense. Hell you can buy a 40 too and still be under $10 a day, and if you’re not feeling it that night your meal fund goes up to $5. Do you know what that means? Buy some dollar foods that provide more than one meal like chicken nuggets and things like that. Lunch is covered for days for $1, and you can spend $5 on a really...
I never sleep.
Even when I have the chance. I miss you, by the way.
why is it that
mixed nuts are so good when you crave them, but so gross when you eat them only because you have no other choice. ick. hi, welcome to rainbow hugs. despite looking like one, i’m not shaking due to being a drug addict, i have have weird blood sugar issues. i now know how to change the oil on my future scooter. look at me learning and such.
but good news!
out of all the chinese scooters, taotao seems to be the best. i know no one cares about any of this. but it’s all i’ve been spending my time doing, and it’s my blog so yes. and the more i post about it on here the less i’ll talk to keith about it which means less chance of getting strangled. and not in the sexy way. okay maybe in a sexy way.
I put my heart and my soul into my work, and have lost my mind in the process.– Vincent van Gogh
my one levee friend is moving. :(
as he works at shadowbox and shadowbox is moving to columbus and he is going with them. this is why we can’t have nice things. also this coffee that i thought would wake me up is just making me sick. bah.
looking at chinese scooter reviews..
all saying inexpensive and you get what you paid for. but i think i’d rather pay $770 instead of $3,300 i was going to pay with financing that with interest would end up being over $5,000. so no matter how much work i put into this thing, i’ll still be saving money. also i’d love to have a project and learn how to work on it, as i plan to get more and i plan to get old vintage...
late to work. exhausted. will be seeing scooter another day as i didn’t go to bed til around seven am and i don’t feel well. i’m so damn tired. 11:16. 4.5 hours left. i got this. just take me home and cuddle meeeee, gosh.
i’ve been tired since. well. i woke up. need to buy more sleeping pills. i’ve been out for a while. on the to do list. up in four hours. calls for one hell of a nap time after we go look at scooters. may be so tired we put that off until tomorrow. then keith and dave are off thursday and i don’t go in til four, so spending the evening drinking with them and watching...
It's so hard to sleep with you next to me.
It’s so hard to close my eyes. I always open them because I want to look at you more. I can’t help but let my hand feel every bit of your skin. I can’t help but stare at your lips and want to kiss them but be too afraid to wake you. It’s so hard to sleep next to you feeling butterflies still. Thinking about how lucky I am. That there is no way in hell I’ve been...
so i put in into the wild, as i do.
and as the menu music came on i was brought back to when i got my first apartment. and how we watched that every night as it was basically the only movie we had and alyssa had to sleep to a movie on. i’d wake up and hear it and remember, “i am alone and i’m okay.” it was nice.
Keith is out cold.
I’m about to be. Work 10 to 4! Yeah. Wooo. Looking at my scooter when we’re off. Mm :)
no matter what i'm reading as soon as the word...
unless it’s a cosmic brownie. then of course i want one, thank you for asking. didn’t sleep! doctor’s appointment went well as in i got medicine but bad as in i have a fever. bah. but i should be all fixed soon. i just ate a pep+chee and it was great. i cannot get a hold of keith. hmph. at the levee and will be the next four days too. bah. but good news, i’m...
Doctor. Work til 9.
Going to be a very long day.
Doctor. Work til 9.
Going to be a very long day.
one of you will be mine soon. hopefully.
staying up doing dumb finance stuff in my head. must sleep. have to be up soon for doctor’s appointment and then work. fuck. but i would very much like to be my dyke self on my scooter, and be able to go on late night or hell, day time adventures with keith or whoever wanted to as i would get 100mpg and we wouldn’t have to be worried about gas. and we can explore and adventure and...
Welcome to the Death Star: $870 is how much I make... →
nightmaresofsocrates: I pay $220 for rent. I pay about $20 to $40 for bills so I’ll just say $50. I spend about $150 on cigarettes. That’s $450 left. That’s a big amount. Very big. That covers food and whatever else I may need. Aka I’m saving A LOT of money a month as I don’t tend to spend… That covers food and whatever else I may need. Aka I’m saving A LOT of money a month as I don’t...
$870 is how much I make a month with 30 hour...
I pay $220 for rent. I pay about $20 to $40 for bills so I’ll just say $50. I spend about $150 on cigarettes. That’s $450 left. That’s a big amount. Very big. That covers food and whatever else I may need. Aka I’m saving A LOT of money a month as I don’t tend to spend much. I could totally do $169 a month for a vespa. I totally totally could. And with moving I may...
I want to move out with you.
I want to go apartment hunting and find something perfect. And I want to find a king sized mattress for your bed frame to have our own bed. I want to fill the kitchen with real food and ingredients and fill the pantry with snacks for us. I want to have our pets. I want to make dinner together. I want to have date nights on our couch and watch movies. I want to look all over thrift...
mouth closed. heart open.
all i can offer and i hope it’s enough. i’m falling more in love with you every day. i don’t know why or how, i didn’t think it was possible to fall for you more. but laying next to you and seeing you smile. this is it. baby we’re it.
And the Lord said unto John; Come forth and receive eternal life. But John came...– (via seanfburns)
Kidney infection back. Eyes as big as a cat's.
Ow ow ow ow. Face is broken out worse than ever. Stress does hell to the immune system. Ouch. Shower time and then nap time with Keith. Then I guess we’ll go from there!
My eyes burn being awake this long.
And I’ve smoked too much to have a cigarette. These are the worst times.
I just want to help.
It’s all I ever do and I never stop trying. Even when it blows up in my face.
I don't give a fuck what happens or what's done.
I fucking love my friends and will do anything for them.
Even though I'm not tired, and you fell asleep as...
I adore laying here with you watching your chest rise and fall and feeling your body’s movements. Last night wasn’t good. I haven’t been that upset in a long time. I still hurt a lot. I’m still really scared. I’m really really really scared. But I want whatever we have to be real, so I guess I can’t ignore what’s happened. Just for once I want...
also my face is so broken out i'm not seeing...
i hate bringing this up again. but anyone who was so sweet commenting on the dirty defending me is really awesome. thank you guys. i wish i knew who you all were so i could buy you coffee to say thanks! :) mm. i love when people as a whole surprise me.
dear people who just came in,
i was hoping you’d leave your popcorn and movie candy because you looked kind of dumb and i’m hungry. well you did leave them… and now i’m staring at them and wondering how awkward it would be in you walked in for it and i was eating it… choices…… edit: fuck. you came back and took it. life is hard.
but i definitely wouldn’t give up this girls friendship and that boy sleeping next to me every night for anything. so i guess it all works out. but i do miss my best friend. so best friend, see me soon? okay, break.
watching emma’s videos and getting super nostalgic. even though with relationships and school this was a generally shitty part of my life, hanging out with these kids was definitely the best time. this video is actually the absolute perfect example of what got me thru my depression. they would do this every day when i would refuse to get out of bed for anyone. every day they’d come...
someone posted this on my dirty post: “Back when I was a teenager, if we didn’t like someone, we typically didn’t waste our time talking about them and thinking about them all day. You kids are a strange lot these days. Do you have too much free time, or are you just compulsively crafting your life around her for other reasons? Either way, kids these days… Such drama queens.” i...
i have the cutest boss in the entire world.
i told my mom i’d watch my little brother while my grandma was in surgery on the 25th which i was sure was sunday. it’s not, it’s saturday, and i work 10 to 4. well i called him to see if i could get meagan to do my shift and then selena to do hers and there just be no midshift today which usually isn’t that much of a big deal. but he said that meagan couldn’t because...
I'm sorry and I love you so much.
I know you won’t see this for a day or so but thank you. I hate being pathetic and getting so sick when my blood sugar is too high or too low. I don’t know what causes it but I’m really sorry. I’m really really sorry. You shouldn’t have to run out to get me something to eat because we don’t have anything in the house and I get too sick to leave my bed. I...
Slutty girls sell shirts.
Gonna be a merch girl for my friend’s band in august hopefully. Stoked!
so i'm on the dirty! →
though confused, as i have pretty much zero followers on here, and delete most people from facebook and whoever posted it lurks me both on here and facebook. but hey! i was entertained. i knew that joke picture would get me in trouble haha. but i’ll take it. oh the internet. you sure are something. i’m just curious as to who cares that much?