waking up at like 8 for orientation, then going to keith’s house to hang out until i have to do this bullshit family dinner. then after family dinner, getting keith again and hanging out with emma.
i promised him i’d take his mind off all the bullshit, and that’s what i’ll do. i already made him a god damn care package complete with 2 beers, my last 3 cigarettes, army men, mac and cheese, cereal, and a ton of other stuff. i’m fucking awesome.
tomorrow should be great. and then wednesday, emma’s off work and it should be even fucking better.
“So I can stick to anyone
At least for a little while
A caffeinated stream of cartoon smiles
And conversations sharp and deep
A tempting sample of who I could be
Without the broken glasses waiting underneath”—
got bubble tea with emma and parker and it was so so good. spencer met up with us. dunno how i feel about it. i dunno, i don’t think i like him anymore because of the dick move he pulled, but it sucks having to sit next to him, and know how we won’t ever get to cuddle up again.. i dunno. but we’re watching goodwill hunting tomorrow and we’ll see how that goes. kinda a bummer though.
taylor can;t hang out, so instead i’m going to the saint therese festival with my mom for a bit, cause aaron wants to go. eating there, and then headed back home. alyssa and i keep making plans that fall thru so i asked her if she wants to do something tonight, and david and i might hang out with parker.
Don’t be surprised if you run into a few emotional roadblocks today, Leo. People could be quite stubborn and difficult to deal with. You may exacerbate the situation by trying to get a rise out of someone with your boisterous attitude and dramatic flair. If your efforts don’t yield positive results, back off. Keep your energy to yourself and share it another time when people are more in the mood to play.
Fuck Spencer, I’m going to be heartless for some time now. And as of today, I’m actually semi stoked on it.
I fucking love my friends. I love Alyssa. Molly. Keith. Kyle. David. Jill and Dave even though it’s been a while. Rio. Parker! Michael. Just everyone. Like things are really nice with all of them. I feel like at the end of every year and at the start of summer things get weird, but they’ve finally calmed down and things are starting to get back together. I love it.
And I love Emma Mitchell. She’s my favorite. I’m really glad she’s in my life. I love how different we are, but how we’re still the same. Every night when I could hang out, she’s always my first pick. Bros, what can I say.
Uhm now more random stuff.
I listen to a lot of Manchester orchestra and bishop Allen and I love it. They’re so great.
I’m getting nude/semi nude pictures done when I turn 18. I could get them done now, but I’d have to get a paper signed. I have zero idea how they’ll turn out, but I’m really stoked on that. It’s something i’ve always wanted to do. And it’ll be something really special. :)
Making new friends, keeping doors open and my heart closed. I dunno. I just feel really good about things. I don’t even wanna drink for a while, I’m cool on it.