January 2011
I dunno if anything will top tonight.
December 2010
I should of eaten...
Tonight better be insane.
Giving up partying with my favorite people for it.
I have an hour to get up and ready. I feel sick. But I’ve got this.
She wasnt.
But Keith half woke up and kissed me and was super cute. Better than sex with kira knightly.
Well almost. :p
Kira Knightly in Domino,
Please be in my bed when I come back upstairs.
So just saw the trailer for black swan.
I know, I know. I’m too busy to usually keep up with that stuff. I had no idea it was by the same guy who did requiem for a dream, I had no idea Portman and Kunis were in it, and I had no idea it looked so epic.
Whatever money is left from my pay check this month, is going to be put to seeing that movie.
Oh fuck. Speaking of that. Rent needs to be paid. Well hell.
Can't sleep.
So much alcohol will be consumed. Nervous about having to tackle a bar. Nervous because I dunno if they’ll ID. nervous to be publicly intoxicated in front of my family.
But pumped. This better be the best shit show of 2010.
Goodnight :)
Tomorrow will be wonderful.
Blue raspberry candy. I love you.
Got food, and Keith got his clothes for the wedding, and I saw Tim and I’m eating a baby bottle pop.
Garden state after he showers, and then sleep. Stoked! Buying five hour energies for tomorrow.
I'm blogging about absolutely nothing.
Walmart.
Suspenders. We got this.
Nobody claims Kentucky.
Boyfriend you are cute.
Seriously stayed up til 8am talking and such. It was lovely.
You’re lovely boo.
Wedding tomorrow! Nervous but I’m gonna look really good. Excited!
Even though we're watching porn,
I’m about to get sentimental.
I love seeing friends smile. Yup. Anyways.
Hahahaha I love Gordy Henry.
Never leave!
“You see that couch? That’s probably a nice suede.”
– Kevyn
No we're not watching porn.
No I’m not in a room with four other guys.
No this isn’t awkward.
“Of course I’ll be your friend We Came as Romans!”
– Bailey on myspace hahaha
Well the dye turned my hands blue.
So it’s blue based. Cause it’s cheap. If I wash it out early it probably will be blue. But I’ll behave. Cause if I dont my aunt and grandma will say I ruined the wedding. They do that. 20 Ish minutes to go til this sets. Bored.
Had a cool moment today though. Tim, the guy from guitar center and walmart smoked with me and his friends and we talked about religion. I wish I could...
I'm going to look mindblowingly good for this...
And im putting blue in my hair after. It’s final.
Cigarettes and Gasoline: 2010 →
emmatchell:
Here’s to one of the strangest years of my life.
And here’s to having a horrible memory. Bear with me. Started the new year at Sarah’s house with David, Sarah, Parker, Aaron… was Rosey there? Despite recently discovering alcohol and beginning a slight attachment to it, there wasn’t any involved,…
My best friend. Her story is a huge part of my story. So here’s...
Day off.
Keith’s day off.
Was supposed to spend the day with my boyfriend.
Just got completely ditched. In his house alone. I feel like I might cry.
I’m a fucking baby. I just needed a day with you and I don’t need to be alone.
And I’m gonna feel like a bitch being mad at you. Because I hate when people in relationships fight and I hate when I cause them. But no, this is...
I just flooded Everyone's dash.
My apologies.
Gonna wake this kid up with an attack of kisses and then go to sleep.
Plans for tomorrow? Gordy, Keith and I are marathoning porn to do commentary, play candy land with Keith and Kyle, and see Ethan. Should be a good day.
This is the beginning of the documentary of the...
And I’ll start it the way I always start these. With new years. And this is the third but also last time it will start with kourtney smith.
It was midnight and Rosey was my midnight kiss. She had been texting me all night, for the first time in weeks. And I was sweet though I shouldn’t of been. As everyone was passing out I agreed to meet up with her, and I lied and said I was...
Dear Alyssa.
You picked up my mood times a million tonight. Thank you.
Felt a little like old times and it was nice.
The way I see it, new art styles are only invented...
Art documents failure. And the ones that don’t, don’t mean very much to me.
Maybe i’m just difficult. And a complete cynic.
Emma you're right. Need to write a year summary,
I feel like that’ll take forever but I think I’ll start tonight.
Sirs called off work Thursday.
I have a feeling may get out early tonight but I dunno. I don’t have a book to read though, bummer.
But no work until Monday. Wedding friday. The world’s trying to put me in a good mood.
Super dehydrated and feeling sick as fuck,
Cant call off. Sleep more. I’ve got this.
I owe you a million apologies.
You deserve so much more. But you also don’t deserve me breaking up with you. But I want you to have the best and that’s not me.
I’m not saying that as an excuse to leave, I’m saying it because I’m guilty of not being perfect. I want to be thinner, prettier, smarter, and sexier for you. I want to have a better job, a nice place and a car for you. I want to be less...
Having such a mental trip.
Shitty. Fucking. Mood.
Forgot the key to my house. I’m at Keith’s and he’s asleep downstairs and didn’t really wake up when I woke him up. I’m upstairs alone.
Ever since the whole thing blew up about Keith cheating, dave, Kevyn, and Blake have been insanely distant. I hate staying here every night now. I hate staying at my mom’s. I hate feeling like no where’s home. I hate...
Being entirely too introspective.
Feeling unwanted. Pathetic, I’m aware.
Coffee withdrawal. Pepper pod how could you do this to me.
I keep thinking about your exgirlfriend.
How silly is that.
From what you’ve said, I’m better than Molly could of been. Still makes me sad.
And as I was typing this, you rolled over and put your arm and leg around me and kissed my back..
Nevermind Nevermind Nevermind.
" Low serotonin levels lead to irritability,...
Explains a lot.. Hmph.,
On edge.
And I feel like I desperately need someone to push me. Drastic change.
Break up with me. Move me far away. Phone call from someone in the past. Tell me you hate me. Steal me and let’s just leave.
But I really don’t want any of that to happen. Except maybe the last one.
Why am I craving to get my heart broken? Why am I craving to hurt?
I guess I’d just rather it be now...
Sorry tumblr.
I actually blog instead of just posting pictures.
I know, I’m not cool, I know.
Shunnnnn.
I feel bad staying here every night.
I feel bad sitting on my phone on tumblr while Keith sleeps, only cause he’s so cute on me when he sleeps and I wish I could do the same.
I just feel bad tonight.
This week I’m getting everything out of my apartment and going to my mom’s.
Friday I’ll be paying rent with everything in my bank account.
For some reason I’m sad tonight and can’t shake it.
