i’ve tried multiple times in the past, and always gave up quickly. i can never get it so my webcam works. I have a macbook, and i always click accept, when it asks to search for my webcam. When it goes live, i just never show up. Does anyone know how to change this or fix this?
i know howwww but don’t remember 100%
i think you have to go to settings, before you click accept, and say its from like.. the usb port? or maybe not that setting but one like that? hmm…
it was really hot, so i asked kourtney to point the fan towards us. she was too cold, so i got the blanket and pulled it over her. we weren’t exactly comfy, so i picked up the pillow from the floor and put it under our heads.
"there.. now we have everything. …now we have everything."
sitting by the river, talking about god, and life, and living, and singing random ass songs, and talking with random ass people.
i fucking love cyndi. there’s a reason we’ve been friends for so long. going out to florence with kourtney soon. my mom fucking hates me and it’s awesome haha. we hardly talk. she can’t decide what to do with me, and i keep saying i just want to be left alone. i don’t know. i’m kinda falling apart and coming together at the same time and i really like it.
i want to watch into the wild tonight.. i just might. chicago maybe sometime soon with either my mom and megan or cyndi and kourtney. rosey hates me yet again, because i’m not going with him to a wedding, cause he fucked me over. whatever. he came over last night cause i needed a light to light some candles. it was really nice, and we just sat around and talked and he fell asleep. it was fun. and now he hates me again. wish he wasn’t such a selfish asshole this summer..
good night though. tomorrow should be nice. and so should the next day. mhmm. woo this summer. finally starting to work out.
oh yeah? well some lady shot two people down the road from me.
i need sleep. getting up, then practicing with emma, then hanging out with kourtney, megan, and cyndi.
i feel so sick! haha in my dream i made out with someone from tumblr. it was really weird. but i told her and she didn’t hate me or think i was a creep, so i think in that itself, plus the aquarium, the pet store, seeing erin, and kourtney cuddle time, today was a win.
"Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life… But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life. I chose somethin’ else. And the reasons? There are no reasons."
i’ve seen this movie tons of times. i’ve always loved this quote. but today i read it and i thought, “i didn’t choose life.. but what have i been choosing?” what i’ve chosen is living. which is funny and ironic. but to get that “life,” you have to sacrifice a lot of life and living.
today was good. i woke up and hung out with chris all day and things might be good now. he’s so much fun when he’s not an asshole. which is only 15% of the time but still. i think next thursday thru sunday i’m going camping with him. hm. could be really fun if megan and mikayla end up being there.
came home, talked to some people, fought with my mom. it was good. road trip tomorrow to whooo knowsss whereee. yes.
but I guess i’ll have to settle for a few brief moments
and watch all dissolve into a single second
and try to write it down into a perfect sonnet
or one foolish line
'cause that's all that you'll get so you'll have to accept
you are here and then you’re gone
but i believe that lovers should be tied together and
thrown into the ocean in the worst of weather
and left there to drown
left there to drown
in their “innocence”
And what’s worse is that you don’t want to understand. Because you only give a shit about yourselves.
You know what? Fuck you. Fuck you both.
You can take my material things, you can keep me in the house, you can control what I’m doing at school, but you know what?
You will never, ever, be able to get rid of that fact that I know I am a better person than you are! And that one day, I will be greater than you ever knew I could be, then you could ever wish to be, and I’ll forget all about you. And you’ll want me back then, yeah, because I’ll finally be acceptable in your eyes! Because you won’t be ashamed to look at someone and say “that’s my daughter.” Because you’ll want all my credit!
Well forget it. I don’t need you. I’m through caring about people who don’t fucking care about me. So you can just burn in hell.
cheer up babycakes. <3 <3 you deserve the world and you’ll get it someday.
don’t even try to deny it. if someone was to put you up next to some barbie doll playboy model, you know the boy would pick her, even if you’re personality is 100 times better. it’s how life is. prove me wrong. i have yet to meet one guy that doesn’t have this type of mind. nothing wrong with it, it’s how life works. but stop kidding yourselves and saying personality is all that matters. it does in the end. but not at first.
i agree with this, sort of. when people say looks really matter, i think that’s bullshit tho. I think looks only matter in the beginning. This is how i see it. Your going to be attracted to someone you find attractive, obviously, but most of the time if their personality is shit, then you lose that attraction. You become friends with the person with a good personality, and eventually, you are able to be attracted to that person because of the personality. It doesn’t matter if you don’t find them attractive. The insides make up for it. So in the end, personality matters, but it doesn’t start the cycle.
i am the most negative piece of shit, but i’ve been a part of 4 really important and influencial relationships in my life so far, and none of them started from that. i’ve had some that have, but the real amazing ones started from pure attraction, a chemistry i have when i see someone for the first time. 3/4 of them i didn’t even find super attractive, but when i learned their personalities, it made them beautiful, and the most attractive things in the world to me.