don’t really know where to start. uhm. wednesday, had a fun freak out that lead to me and rosey sneaking out at 2 and hanging out on the bridge all night, getting pulled over, and getting away with it.
friday, rosey and i hung out at my house and adventured while my mom and dad went out to dinner. i feel like something cool happened that night? but i dunno if it actually did or not. i dunno.
woke up to megan and mikayla to see the new piercing. looking good. rosey came by, pissy. then called him, invited him to joe’s crab shack with my mom and i. did that til 10ish. he came over, kourtney fell asleep.. had to call off plans.. it was dumb. rosey came and got me, we snuck into after prom. he got “hypnotized.” saw people, it was cool. stole a ton of food. rio broke rosey’s door. that was cool. went to the pepper pod, saw a punch of people. brian kremer waved at me, and was intoxicated. i enjoyed that. went home, with white castle. sun came up, he left.
it’s 9am. i really don’t feel tired, but i do at the same time. emma, hit that laser tag shit up. i’m gonna try not to sleep all day but it isnt for sure. i have all week to practice. like i can come over, you can come over. we can just get this shit down, acoustic or whatever. we’ll work in some bad ass keyboard maybe and i can try to get it down. when i wake up yesterday, i’m making flyers. and monday, we’ll put them all around school.
david; i texted you!
i kind of hate everyone but it’s okay. i really like staying up all night. like it is one of the nicest freaking things. i love night air in summer time.
fighting with chris today. which is fun. john’s coming to lunch tomorrow! :D woo. uhm. oh! got in a fight with kids in the cafeteria today. that was cool. haha not really, but kind of at the same time. i didn’t even know them and they were throwing paper balls at me? what the fuck? i dunno. whatever. uhmmm.
today’s just been bad. and it’s only 10:00 am. so room for improvement i guess. detention later. COOOOL. south park is on tonigggght. if chris isn’t coming, i’m asking alex to. that’d be fun i think. :)
ba ba ba bab abbbbb. uhm. yeah. i feel like i’m really loving today on the outside but hateful on the inside and it’s weird.
hahahaah i’m dumb. i figured out that answer thing. you just have to ask a question. do you like questions? hahah and then the little thing comes up. that’s cool tumblr! i dig that!
i need to pass this year dude. and i need a summer school free summer. and a car. but i’ll just try to make it work. i’m gonna have a good time this summer. with sweet clothes, and my camera. it’s gonna be a good one. my sleep schedule needs to get better. sleeping all day and up all night only works out kinda. i haven’t seen 4 oclock in a while.. i’m either still sleeping or napping..
"that party last night was awfully crazy, i wish we taped it. i danced my ass off and had this one girl completely naked." hahah i wish that song was better. but it’s not too bad.
i’m trying to get a prom together, i just can’t find anywhere to have it yet. i want it big with a lot of people from all over the place. so i need someone who will let me have it at their house.. hmm..
it’s my dad’s name, and the name of the first kid i talked to on my first day of highschool, and my first highschool best friend’s middle name. i like david’s. haha :)
the play was good. dude, emma, yeah. carly was a fucking bad ass. she can sinnnnng.
tomorrow is the day. are you ready for it? not sure if i am.
OH AND apparently online all i talk about online is how i want new friends and hate mine. well sorry you did some fucking shitty things. but you look like a definition tool when you bitch about it in public cause everyone knows you deserved every word i said about it. you talk shit about everyone. especially me, and rosey, and then some of the people “closest” to you. you tell people not to talk to me. you’re a bitch to me.
i don’t text back because you’re annoying when i do. i don’t enjoy getting bitched at. clean up your act and maybe i’d enjoy texting you. but til then, no dice.
first off, yes. i do read everything you post, and i enjoy it. i get really really down sometimes.. i know things arent as bad as i might see them sometimes.. i’m trying to change my perspectives 100% instead of just sometimes.. i want to say that things really aren’t so bad. but i dunno. fuck. perspectives are so strange. lately i find myself drifting into other ones, and realizing it, then going back into my usual one. it’s strange..
second. mitch. his name, and the day it happened have been on my wall since that very day. i could tell you every little bit of that day. i was so angry. i heard about it in my first period.. and turned into a zombie.. i didn’t want to talk.. i just felt tears in my eyes. when my third period came along, we all stayed quiet. teachers came in and tried to bullshit us. we knew it was all lies. i held it together until mr. crouch let us go to the football field. as soon as i stood up, i lost it. i collapsed on the field and was so so angry. kept repeating how it wasn’t fair. sixteen years.. only sixteen years..
a lot of people were really loving that day. my makeup stained jake smith’s shirt. people made sure i was okay all day..
emma, think we can be the next jason mraz?
i think so.
i dunno if youre still as game with all this as i am.. but i really really am.
but i know you have a big future. so i understand if you don’t want to.
but i feel like we’ve got this.. i dunno. just my thoughts.
this one was good. it really was. had a lot of kourtney time. a lot of chris time. went places i wasn’t allowed, and loved it. hung out with people i’m not allowed to hang out with, and loved it. did things i’m not allowed to do, and had a great time.
why is it that everything good is against what is “good.”?
i love people. like kourtney and chris and rio and emily and megan and emma and just fucking everyone. i’m really digging this being alive thing. but there are a few people who better not cross me when i get back to school monday. don’t cross me sweetheart.
“Cause it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
I stare at the phone and he still hasn’t called
And you feel so low you can’t feel nothing at all
And you flash back to when we said forever and always”—swaylor tift.
yesterday i got dropped off at tower park, to be picked up 20 minutes later by lil miss kourtney and it began. headed out on the highway, only.. 40% sure of what we were doing. got lost. got lost. asked for directions. got lost. asked for directions. “that’s where all the hippies and crazies go! why would you want to go there!?” (ends up the guy owned a tattoo place there) got lost. asked. “.. you don’t want to go there..” lost. then found the lovely little town of yellow springs, ohio.
had my first veggie burger at an all organic cafe. never seen so many bikes around in my life. tons of little restaurants (next time hitting up haha’s pizza.) superman obama banners. saw 420 sketched in what was once wet cement and anti peace sign spray painted on a trash can. we were there maybe two hours before we had to head back, which was a bummer since it’s such a long drive there. but it’s a great little town, i cannot wait to go back.
next warm day, headed down to the gorge.
can’t sit still too long. i go crazy.
things look better now.
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